Disconnected

Some sad news this week. My Grandpa passed away on Tuesday. He was sick and ready to go and my mom was able to be there with him and his wife, which is good. I'm not sure how I feel about it. I wasn't very close to my Grandpa. In fact, I'd only seen him a handful of times in the last 20 years I think. My mom had gotten close to him over the last several years and so I think most of my emotion with his passing is for my mom. I am not sure how she is doing with everything, I just know that no matter how crazy things are with my own father, it would be hard to see him go. I am also feeling fairly disconnected from everything because we are living here instead of in Colorado. I kind of feel like I can't be there for anyone and I'm not sure how the rest of the family feels. I think that if anyone needs me, they know they can call me but all of this has just made me feel a little further away. Maybe I would feel the same way if I was in Colorado though. I'm waiting to feel loss and I feel guilty for not feeling it yet but I honestly don't know if I will. Like I said, I am just wanting my mom to be ok and I think she is, but still keep her and her brothers and sisters in your thoughts, please.

So, just as I thought, I don't have much to talk about this week as far as new stuff going on. We are just getting settled in the house. The first few days of the week I did really good and unpacked a bunch of boxes but now, it's just stopped completely and we still have quite a mess of a house happening. Oh well. It's nice to just chill out. The weather here has been really nice! It's been in the 60s this week so we've been able to play outside with Little Miss and she is loving her new slide! I am currently trying to find a church, which is a lot harder than I thought. After reading through some mission statements and belief systems at some of the local churches, I think I have decided I feel most comfortable with being non-denominational. Now to find a non-denominational church! The hard part is that both MH and I would like to find a younger church that feels comfortable rather than pressured, if that makes sense, but when you aren't even sure where to start, what can you do? I will keep trying. I've also been thinking about joining a MOPS group or they have this site called milwaukeemoms.com that I've looked a little bit into. I'm just feeling like we are very alone out here. We were invited out to dinner last night because of St. Patty's Day and I don't think I had a conversation with anyone there. It was nice to be invited, and I like our friends, we just don't have a whole lot in common right now. I think they understand the fact that wherever we go, we will have a 2-year-old with us, but I don't know if they fully understand what kind of distraction that is. They are all talking about joining sports leagues for the summer and that's just not even a reality for us so we are automatically outsiders there. I am hoping to find some people with kids that we can hang out with. There is too much going on in the summer here for us to stay inside so I just hope we have someone to share the fun times with. If not, I'm more than happy being with the family alone.

Well I'm exhausted for some reason tonight so I'm going to turn in early. Have a good night!

Positive Milwaukee Note: I'm thinking I should change this to "Positive Wisconsin Note" since we aren't technically in Milwaukee anymore but we'll wait until next week for that. So my note for the day is since Wisconsin is so dang cold in the winter, they basically shove 12 months worth of stuff to do into about 5 or 6 months. Although that means I don't have much to look forward to next winter, it does mean that we've got a heck of a summer coming up!