So, we've had a bit more roller coastering (I'm making it a word) this week. My subject of the day is Ups and Downs because that's all I've been thinking about the last few days. The weekend's ups and downs were that we were invited out with friends on Saturday, which was great, but for some reason, MH and I were just feeling like outsiders. I have a theory about why we feel like that. I think it's because we are used to being the planners. We are used to inviting people to our house, making plans for the weekends, having plans for major events i.e., birthdays, the Super Bowl, etc. and now we aren't a part of that stuff anymore. I think things will change at some point, especially when we actually have a place to invite people to but we are on all new territory here. I guess I knew that was coming but in my head it wasn't that difficult. It was exciting to think about stepping out of our comfort zones and meeting people and learning new places. I think now that I'm in the midst of it, I am doing a lot less stepping out than I thought I would.
We still don't know about the house. On Saturday, we checked the mail about 20 times hoping for the forms we needed and then found out on Monday that we weren't going to get them. For some reason, the income that we are counting on to buy this house isn't going to be reported for 2009. I was told that everything we've received won't be counted until next year's taxes. It all seems very odd to me. I asked why it would be like that but I haven't heard back. So now we are trying our other options before giving up on this house. We had our inspection today and it went very well. It's kind of difficult to go over there because it makes me want the house more. I'm so worried about getting my hopes up for this place because I feel like we are on a bad news streak right now.
Speaking of which, I got more bad news today about my doctor appointment. I don't know if I wrote about this before but I've been trying to get an appointment since I got here because I knew I had my big ultrasound coming up and wanted to make sure I got it. Well, after going through a big hassle, I finally gave up and called my doctor in Denver knowing that I had to fly out there for my co-workers retirement party. I've been looking forward to this appointment all week and was so excited to finally get my ultrasound. Well, my doctor's office called me today and told me they can't see me. Apparently, they already closed my file out when I said I was moving and it's a malpractice issue for them to let me have an appointment this week. So I completely lost while on the phone with the office manager at my doctor's. I had just gotten to a point that I couldn't handle any more bad news. I know it wasn't the lady on the phone that made those decisions and it's not like I yelled at her or anything, I just had a total breakdown crying episode.
So, I called MH and he brought up a good point. He said that right now we are in the middle of trying to find a place to live, trying to figure out a babysitter, trying to find a doctor, and trying to find him a job. But by the end of this month, we will know the answers to all of those questions. And that just made me think about things a little more. Yes, things feel really crappy right now and yes, we could use some good news right about now but the thing that keeps going through my head today is that at some point, it has to get better. There is always going to be a point where things start looking up. Once you get low enough, the only direction left is up!
So everyday, I debate with myself about posting another depressing post. However, I think I'm going to throw that thought right out because it's OK for me to be feeling crappy. It's ok for me to want to talk about it with you fine folks. And soon enough, I'll have happier things to talk about and I will be able to look back on all of this and wonder why I thought it was so bad.
I don't usually listen to country music but I happen to like Carrie Underwood. I bought her CD a while back because there was a commercial on TV where she was singing her song So Small. I ended up loving the song and the lyrics are ringing through my head lately so I thought I'd share them in case you haven't heard them yet. Her song says:
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
is just a grain of sand
And what you've been out there searching for forever
is in your hands
Positive Milwaukee Note: Most people don't have sprinkler systems here because apparently you don't have to water your lawn that much for it to stay green! So even though MH has an obsession with watering the lawn, it looks like we could save some money this year if it stays green enough!
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